English to Chinese Science Psychology psychology

I risk myself,because if,as the relationship(with my client) deepens,what develops is a failure, a regression, a repudiation of me and the relationship by the client, then I sense that I will lose myself, or a part of myself.
我是在拿自己冒险，因为如果随着这种关系加深，结果是我自己以及这种关系失败、倒退或否定的话，我感觉我会失去，或者部分地失去自我。
by the client 由于我的当事人？