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conscious in adult contexts for this activity in my mother
I thought the author was saying that he has become fully aware of his mother’s behavior once he had become an adult, but I'm not sure that's a right interpretation because of the use of “conscious...for”; if it were to mean "aware", shouldn’t it be “conscious of”?
Thank you so much for your help!
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I can see that in my family of origin I was overwhelmed and deeply shamed by the repetitive outbursts of my frustrated mother, who – unable to manage her own anxieties and also respond to the challenges of parenting a precocious child – turned to gross shaming as a solution to clear any threats to her stability and to establish her dominance. *** Having been conscious in adult contexts for this activity in my mother ***, I can still see with my mind’s eye the sneer of contempt, as in “How could you be so stupid?” or “Who would do such a thing?” or “You lousy rotten kid,” in moments when she was not her usual loving self and lapsed into self-protective modes of living.
4 +6 | aware as an adult that my mother did this | philgoddard |
3 | being aware of | Andy Hoang |
Jan 16, 2024 18:01: philgoddard changed "Field" from "Social Sciences" to "Other"
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aware as an adult that my mother did this
Thank you so much, Phil, for your valuable contribution! |
being aware of
It might be a nuanced expression, though the choice of words is a bit unconventional.
In my opinion it's a way of expressing that the awareness or consciousness of the mother's behavior occurred in the adult phase of the author's life, possibly as they reflected on their childhood experiences.
Thank you so much, Andy, for your useful explanation! |
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